Why does everyone want to go away? I love being home. But I don't like being left behind.

i've always been the one to leave. My life seems like it's in perpetual motion. when i settled into my job in november, i knew that it was a job i'd be in for a long time, but i don't know how long... but i always thought i'd be the first to leave... if anyone was going to leave the communications team, it'd be me... i'd move somewhere else, go overseas, maybe get married and stop working, leave for another job...

i'm not saying i want to do any of those things right now... i'm totally okay with where i am... i just thought i'd be the first to leave... (similar to the thought that i wouldn't be the last one of my college girl-friends to get married...) i thought that things would stay the same around here for years to come - i would be the one who wouldn't stay the same...

i was wrong...

i take comfort in knowing that everyone isn't leaving... but derinda told me this afternoon when i got into work that her husband had accepted the call to a church in idaho... they had gone in view of a call a few weeks ago, but decided not to take it... it kind of rocked my boat a little, but i was glad that derinda wasn't leaving - i still have so much to learn from her... well, something happened in the last few days and now they're leaving to take the position at the church in idaho...

her husband is leaving at the end of july and she's planning to follow at the end of august... i don't know if cameron wants to hire someone else or if we're just going to make it work for a while...

the real sad part about all of this is that i was really just starting to appreciate derinda for all that she does... i took her for granted the first few months i was here and i was starting to see how great she is... she's so different from me in so many ways... and i have learned a great deal from her - about a lot of different things... she is amazing - in her devotion to the Lord and to her husband... she is diligent and direct... her honesty is refreshing...

i'm going to try and take advantage of the next two months... i have so much to learn!!